Reaching Milestones and Making Decisions

At his last dr appt just before he turned ll weeks Lucas was 14 1/2 pds and 24 inches. that was painful watching him get 5 shots, i am sooo glad his daddy was there to help momma was a wreck. Today i put him in his walker (which he is to little for but daddy insisted i try him in it once in a while) and for the first time i saw him really try to reach for something. still with a closed fist but he kept digging at the honey pot with a clenched fist as if trying to draw it closer, with the cutest little look of concentration on his face. He is smiling alot more now and cooing as if he wants to talk. (say maaamaaaa) I am trying to make a very hard decision about work right now, i am looking into findng a couple kids to watch so i can stay home with him but i am so afraid to quit my job right now in this terrible economy. we cannot make it on jrs salary. but i am basically working for little more than to pay daycare and missing out on so much with my son. Please God make a way for it to happen!